VOLUME II - BOOK TWELFTH - CHAPTER I

Strether couldn't have said he had during the previous hours

definitely expected it; yet when. later on, that morning--though

no later indeed than for his coming forth at ten o'clock--he saw

the concierge produce, on his approach, a petit bleu delivered

since his letters had been sent up, he recognised the appearance as

the first symptom of a sequel. He then knew he had been thinking

of some early sign from Chad as more likely, after all, than not;

and this would be precisely the early sign. He took it so for

granted that he opened the petit bleu just where he had stopped, in

the pleasant cool draught of the porte-cochere--only curious to see

where the young man would, at such a juncture, break out. His

curiosity, however, was more than gratified; the small missive,

whose gummed edge he had detached without attention to the address,

not being from the young man at all, but from the person whom the

case gave him on the spot as still more worth while. Worth while

or not, he went round to the nearest telegraph-office, the big one

on the Boulevard, with a directness that almost confessed to a fear

of the danger of delay. He might have been thinking that if he didn't

go before he could think he wouldn't perhaps go at all. He at

any rate kept, in the lower side-pocket of his morning coat, a very

deliberate hand on his blue missive, crumpling it up rather tenderly

than harshly. He wrote a reply, on the Boulevard, also in the form

of a petit bleu--which was quickly done, under pressure of the place,

inasmuch as, like Madame de Vionnet's own communication, it consisted

of the fewest words. She had asked him if he could do her the very

great kindness of coming to see her that evening at half-past nine,

and he answered, as if nothing were easier, that he would present

himself at the hour she named. She had added a line of postscript,

to the effect that she would come to him elsewhere and at his own hour

if he preferred; but he took no notice of this, feeling that if he

saw her at all half the value of it would be in seeing her where he

had already seen her best. He mightn't see her at all; that was

one of the reflexions he made after writing and before he dropped

his closed card into the box; he mightn't see any one at all

any more at all; he might make an end as well now as ever,

leaving things as they were, since he was doubtless not to leave

them better, and taking his way home so far as should appear that

a home remained to him. This alternative was for a few minutes

so sharp that if he at last did deposit his missive it was perhaps

because the pressure of the place had an effect.

There was none other, however, than the common and constant pressure,

familiar to our friend under the rubric of Postes et Telegraphes--

the something in the air of these establishments; the vibration of

the vast strange life of the town, the influence of the types,

the performers concocting their messages; the little prompt Paris women,

arranging, pretexting goodness knew what, driving the dreadful

needle-pointed public pen at the dreadful sand-strewn public table:

implements that symbolised for Strether's too interpretative innocence

something more acute in manners, more sinister in morals, more fierce

in the national life. After he had put in his paper he had ranged

himself, he was really amused to think, on the side of the fierce,

the sinister, the acute. He was carrying on a correspondence,

across the great city, quite in the key of the Postes et Telegraphes

in general; and it was fairly as if the acceptance of that fact had

come from something in his state that sorted with the occupation of

his neighbours. He was mixed up with the typical tale of Paris, and so

were they, poor things--how could they all together help being?

They were no worse than he, in short, and he no worse than they--

if, queerly enough, no better; and at all events he had settled his

hash, so that he went out to begin, from that moment, his day of

waiting. The great settlement was, as he felt, in his preference

for seeing his correspondent in her own best conditions. THAT was

part of the typical tale, the part most significant in respect to

himself. He liked the place she lived in, the picture that each

time squared itself, large and high and clear, around her: every

occasion of seeing it was a pleasure of a different shade. Yet

what precisely was he doing with shades of pleasure now, and why

hadn't he properly and logically compelled her to commit herself

to whatever of disadvantage and penalty the situation might throw

up? He might have proposed, as for Sarah Pocock, the cold

hospitality of his own salon de lecture, in which the chill of

Sarah's visit seemed still to abide and shades of pleasure were

dim; he might have suggested a stone bench in the dusty Tuileries

or a penny chair at the back part of the Champs Elysees. These

things would have been a trifle stern, and sternness alone now

wouldn't be sinister. An instinct in him cast about for some form

of discipline in which they might meet--some awkwardness they would

suffer from, some danger, or at least some grave inconvenience,

they would incur. This would give a sense--which the spirit

required, rather ached and sighed in the absence of--that somebody

was paying something somewhere and somehow, that they were at least

not all floating together on the silver stream of impunity. Just

instead of that to go and see her late in the evening, as if, for

all the world--well, as if he were as much in the swim as anybody

else: this had as little as possible in common with the penal form.

Even when he had felt that objection melt away, however, the

practical difference was small; the long stretch of his interval

took the colour it would, and if he lived on thus with the sinister

from hour to hour it proved an easier thing than one might have

supposed in advance. He reverted in thought to his old tradition,

the one he had been brought up on and which even so many years of

life had but little worn away; the notion that the state of the

wrongdoer, or at least this person's happiness, presented some

special difficulty. What struck him now rather was the ease of it--

for nothing in truth appeared easier. It was an ease he himself

fairly tasted of for the rest of the day; giving himself quite up;

not so much as trying to dress it out, in any particular whatever,

as a difficulty; not after all going to see Maria--which would have

been in a manner a result of such dressing; only idling, lounging,

smoking, sitting in the shade, drinking lemonade and consuming

ices. The day had turned to heat and eventual thunder, and he now

and again went back to his hotel to find that Chad hadn't been

there. He hadn't yet struck himself, since leaving Woollett, so

much as a loafer, though there had been times when he believed

himself touching bottom. This was a deeper depth than any, and

with no foresight, scarcely with a care, as to what he should bring

up. He almost wondered if he didn't LOOK demoralised and

disreputable; he had the fanciful vision, as he sat and smoked,

of some accidental, some motived, return of the Pococks, who would

be passing along the Boulevard and would catch this view of him.

They would have distinctly, on his appearance, every ground for scandal.

But fate failed to administer even that sternness; the Pococks never

passed and Chad made no sign. Strether meanwhile continued to hold off

from Miss Gostrey, keeping her till to-morrow; so that by evening

his irresponsibility, his impunity, his luxury, had become--there was

no other word for them--immense.

Between nine and ten, at last, in the high clear picture--he was

moving in these days, as in a gallery, from clever canvas to clever

canvas--he drew a long breath: it was so presented to him from the

first that the spell of his luxury wouldn't be broken. He wouldn't

have, that is, to become responsible--this was admirably in the air:

she had sent for him precisely to let him feel it, so that he

might go on with the comfort (comfort already established, hadn't

it been?) of regarding his ordeal, the ordeal of the weeks of

Sarah's stay and of their climax, as safely traversed and left

behind him. Didn't she just wish to assure him that SHE now took

it all and so kept it; that he was absolutely not to worry any

more, was only to rest on his laurels and continue generously to

help her? The light in her beautiful formal room was dim, though

it would do, as everything would always do; the hot night had kept

out lamps, but there was a pair of clusters of candles that

glimmered over the chimney-piece like the tall tapers of an altar.

The windows were all open, their redundant hangings swaying a

little, and he heard once more, from the empty court, the small

plash of the fountain. From beyond this, and as from a great

distance--beyond the court, beyond the corps de logis forming the

front--came, as if excited and exciting, the vague voice of Paris.

Strether had all along been subject to sudden gusts of fancy in

connexion with such matters as these--odd starts of the historic

sense, suppositions and divinations with no warrant but their

intensity. Thus and so, on the eve of the great recorded dates,

the days and nights of revolution, the sounds had come in, the

omens, the beginnings broken out. They were the smell of

revolution, the smell of the public temper--or perhaps simply the

smell of blood.

It was at present queer beyond words, "subtle," he would have

risked saying, that such suggestions should keep crossing the

scene; but it was doubtless the effect of the thunder in the air,

which had hung about all day without release. His hostess was

dressed as for thunderous times, and it fell in with the kind of

imagination we have just attributed to him that she should be in

simplest coolest white, of a character so old-fashioned, if he were

not mistaken, that Madame Roland must on the scaffold have worn

something like it. This effect was enhanced by a small black fichu

or scarf, of crape or gauze, disposed quaintly round her bosom and

now completing as by a mystic touch the pathetic, the noble analogy.

Poor Strether in fact scarce knew what analogy was evoked for him

as the charming woman, receiving him and making him, as she could do

such things, at once familiarly and gravely welcome, moved over her

great room with her image almost repeated in its polished floor,

which had been fully bared for summer. The associations of the place,

all felt again; the gleam here and there, in the subdued light,

of glass and gilt and parquet, with the quietness of her own note

as the centre--these things were at first as delicate as if they

had been ghostly, and he was sure in a moment that, whatever he should

find he had come for, it wouldn't be for an impression that had

previously failed him. That conviction held him from the outset,

and, seeming singularly to simplify, certified to him that the objects

about would help him, would really help them both. No, he might

never see them again--this was only too probably the last time;

and he should certainly see nothing in the least degree like them.

He should soon be going to where such things were not, and it would be

a small mercy for memory, for fancy, to have, in that stress,

a loaf on the shelf. He knew in advance he should look back on the

perception actually sharpest with him as on the view of something

old, old, old, the oldest thing he had ever personally touched;

and he also knew, even while he took his companion in as the feature

among features, that memory and fancy couldn't help being enlisted

for her. She might intend what she would, but this was beyond anything

she could intend, with things from far back--tyrannies of history,

facts of type, values, as the painters said, of expression--

all working for her and giving her the supreme chance, the chance

of the happy, the really luxurious few, the chance, on a great

occasion, to be natural and simple. She had never, with him,

been more so; or if it was the perfection of art it would never--

and that came to the same thing--be proved against her.

What was truly wonderful was her way of differing so from time to

time without detriment to her simplicity. Caprices, he was sure

she felt, were before anything else bad manners, and that judgement

in her was by itself a thing making more for safety of intercourse

than anything that in his various own past intercourses he had had

to reckon on. If therefore her presence was now quite other than

the one she had shown him the night before, there was nothing of

violence in the change--it was all harmony and reason. It gave him

a mild deep person, whereas he had had on the occasion to which

their interview was a direct reference a person committed to

movement and surface and abounding in them; but she was in either

character more remarkable for nothing than for her bridging of

intervals, and this now fell in with what he understood he was to

leave to her. The only thing was that, if he was to leave it ALL

to her, why exactly had she sent for him? He had had, vaguely, in

advance, his explanation, his view of the probability of her

wishing to set something right, to deal in some way with the fraud

so lately practised on his presumed credulity. Would she attempt

to carry it further or would she blot it out? Would she throw over

it some more or less happy colour; or would she do nothing about it

at all? He perceived soon enough at least that, however reasonable

she might be, she wasn't vulgarly confused, and it herewith

pressed upon him that their eminent "lie," Chad's and hers, was

simply after all such an inevitable tribute to good taste as he

couldn't have wished them not to render. Away from them, during

his vigil, he had seemed to wince at the amount of comedy involved;

whereas in his present posture he could only ask himself how he

should enjoy any attempt from her to take the comedy back. He

shouldn't enjoy it at all; but, once more and yet once more, he

could trust her. That is he could trust her to make deception

right. As she presented things the ugliness--goodness knew why--

went out of them; none the less too that she could present them,

with an art of her own, by not so much as touching them. She let

the matter, at all events, lie where it was--where the previous

twenty-four hours had placed it; appearing merely to circle about

it respectfully, tenderly, almost piously, while she took up

another question.

She knew she hadn't really thrown dust in his eyes; this, the

previous night, before they separated, had practically passed

between them; and, as she had sent for him to see what the

difference thus made for him might amount to, so he was conscious

at the end of five minutes that he had been tried and tested. She

had settled with Chad after he left them that she would, for her

satisfaction, assure herself of this quantity, and Chad had, as

usual, let her have her way. Chad was always letting people have

their way when he felt that it would somehow turn his wheel for

him; it somehow always did turn his wheel. Strether felt, oddly

enough, before these facts, freshly and consentingly passive; they

again so rubbed it into him that the couple thus fixing his

attention were intimate, that his intervention had absolutely aided

and intensified their intimacy, and that in fine he must accept the

consequence of that. He had absolutely become, himself, with his

perceptions and his mistakes, his concessions and his reserves, the

droll mixture, as it must seem to them, of his braveries and his

fears, the general spectacle of his art and his innocence, almost

an added link and certainly a common priceless ground for them to

meet upon. It was as if he had been hearing their very tone when

she brought out a reference that was comparatively straight.

"The last twice that you've been here, you know, I never asked you,"

she said with an abrupt transition--they had been pretending before

this to talk simply of the charm of yesterday and of the interest

of the country they had seen. The effort was confessedly vain; not

for such talk had she invited him; and her impatient reminder was

of their having done for it all the needful on his coming to her

after Sarah's flight. What she hadn't asked him then was to state

to her where and how he stood for her; she had been resting on

Chad's report of their midnight hour together in the Boulevard

Malesherbes. The thing therefore she at present desired was

ushered in by this recall of the two occasions on which,

disinterested and merciful, she hadn't worried him. To-night

truly she WOULD worry him, and this was her appeal to him to let

her risk it. He wasn't to mind if she bored him a little:

she had behaved, after all--hadn't she?--so awfully, awfully well.

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